Children running with White Out!!!!

Now my fellow bloggies I have four children and it is with these four children that I have discovered some hidden talents of my own. For example I yes just lil me has the ability to give, and take away super powers! Oh ya, and I have the extreme knowledge of how to get markers off walls, and duct tape off of clothes!

So when faced with a little boy who decided that White Out is not just to cover up a typo, oh no this little substance was invented for soooooo much more! You see you can use it to paint your hand, use it to write your name on chairs, or you can rub it on your clothes, carpet, heck while your at it put some of this concoction in your hair! So by now you have guessed, my sweet innocent little wee man got ahold of some white out and went uber crazy with it!

Now what you may not know is this lil white substance is freakin hard to get off! Oh ya you know the scene on Mommy Dearest and she is scouring her floor? Well take that and you will have me trying my hardest to clean this stuff up!

Laundry Mania!!!!!

So first let me start by saying I am a huge supporter of washer's and dryer's, tide, and downy! Ya, ya, I am sooooooo trying to get a plug into them!!! Wink , wink, please send me free products!
Now if you are a parent you will understand the true plight of laundry. This is a selfless project that often goes with no recognition (unless they can't find their favorite jeans!). You see I am the busy mommy of four and due to the latest day spent in the laundry mat, I have come to the realization that the world of laundry is dark, lonely, and evil! One must sort, stain stick, separate, and then wash all dirty items, and if that doesn't get you excited you get to fold, iron, and put away all of these clothes too! Yippee!!!
I mean come on its not like I had anything better to do! It was sooooo what I as a teen aspired to do on my days off. You know I was like "Who wants to go to the spa? not me! I just want to do laundry, laundry and lots of it!" Who wouldn't??
And you know what I absolutely love, is that at the end of the fiasco in the laundry mat, I get to come home and load all the laundry up two flights of stairs!!!!! Now I know you are all jealous, and you really should be. I mean while y'all y'all have the ability to do laundry in your home, I have the sweet privilege to take the chore of laundry and turn it into a extreme sport!
I mean come on walk your clothes to your laundry room? Not me I have to lug my laundry down stairs, across ice, into a car that is soooooo not meant to be carting laundry baskets, and then as if that isn't challenging enough I like to up the anty with strangers looking at my unmentionables, and oh the joy of the pick up lines from the singles that frequent the joint like its a episode of the Love Connection!
Now I am not one to judge, but dude if you are watching me load 7 washers with small children's clothes, don't ask me on a date! Seriously! What in the free world could be seen as attractive????? Ewwwwww! I mean come on men, there are sweet single, non attached ladies out there. Don't think that just because you have had a dry spell that you need to go searching out the laundry mat for the single mommy's!
I mean really give yourselves some credit!
Not to mention, I don't know or speak for all the woman in the world but when I am in a tshirt, jeans, and uggs, with a ponytail, I am not really looking like all that so don't act like I am Mrs.America! Now is this a bit cynical? Ah yes, but what ever!
You see I am from the school of thought that if I am just honest, no matter what the topic its often appreciated. You see I have had it up to my booty with the whole touchy feely communication. I mean I don't want to be told how great I look, if the fact of the matter is that I may actually look like a meth addict! For example how many times do our loved ones tell us we are great, and then we come to discover this is not exactly the truth?
Oh no honey you look amazing with your jeans that are showing off your boxers! Or no no sweetheart I love how you show both your cleavage, and you belly ring, the other girls are just calling you a hoochy cause they are jealous!
So you see this is were my sometimes abrasive, but always sarcastic humor sooooo comes in handy. Like when my oldest daughter asked if she could please please wear a tiara to school. Now my instinct was that is social suicide! Now since I am the mommy and must well tip toe around the tulips I have to explain what I am thinking to my lil hershey kiss with love. So I just said to her " Well girli, here is the dealioso. If you have enough moxy to rock the tiara go for it. But just know there is no way I would or could do it! But heck if you feel good and think that you look good than you do it k?" Now thank the lord that I was blessed with the children I have. Because it was with this statement my 11 yr. old looked me in the eye's and said "Hey, I look good. I am going to rock this! ". And as it is often true to form she did, and is. She has a great tiara collection, and it is only on days she goes to the mountain that she doesn't sport her tiara.
So see take honesty with the understanding that it was given to you with great intentions, and don't assume that one is automatically trying to destroy you!
All in all the day was well full of crazy mommy do's but its just the way some days must be!

Today

This is the deal I am exhausted today. I haven't slept well for the past three nights and quite frankly I think that my body may actually be boycotting sleep altogether do to stress! How? Why? Who knows! You know how during high school or college we all had that unbelievable amount of energy that could get us through finals, homework, and then partying with our friends? Well guess what? I think that ship has sailed for me and I am coming to the realization that I can't do it all nor can I do everything that I am trying so hard to achieve all by myself.
Yup, I am spent and I need reinforcements! So if you see Super Nanny, Dr. Phil, and what the heck lets get the fashion make over crew from TLC to come too. Cause guess what? I need someone who can cook, clean, bake, chauffeur, and adore my children. And then I need Dr. Phil to throw in a psyche evaluation for me (I am in desperate need of this due to the sweet issues with the amazing Frog Prince). And you know what I plain just need to get a make over! I mean who really wants to take fashion advice from their 11 year old? I mean come on she can sport the Uggs, shirt, hoodie, and sweats and for fun she throws in a tiara. If I walk out of the house wearing this lil get up I may actually get that psyche evaluation!
So today on the day that I am using my triple shot to just get me in the up right position I have decided I am going to try to not get overwhelmed with the countless gifts I have to start wrapping, the stocking stuffers that must be purchased, the dinner menu that the kids want for our first Christmas, and don't forget the just overwhelming need to sleep!
We shall l see how this day pans out, and I don't end up on the 6 o'clock news with the banner on the bottom of the screen saying "Mother boycotts Christmas prep this year and bombs Walmart" I think all should be good.

What to do what to do??????

Ah fellow blog readers there is always one of those days for all of us that we really don't want to deal with. As many of you know I have a little sister and she is great! Now I am not saying that we always see or have seen eye to eye but we are there when we need each other.
Today started a little rocky for me and then it got really good and then it got stressful! I mean can you say stop to the roller coaster of life? Is there a OFF switch that somebody has neglected to tell me about?
You see my lil sister is dealing with some problems and of course these problems are often brought to her big sister. And today she had a doozy! She is dealing with a little bit of an issue with a past employer, and to say the least it has ballooned into a full on train wreck. Now often when I need advice or feel stressed I am able to go to my confidant and everything is all better. But today with the hectic day at my job I felt like I was just overwhelmed with everything and contacting anyone has been well a freaking mess! You know how you only want to talk to that person and they are unavailable?
It is often in times like these that I feel like the kid in the back of the class with my hand up and the teacher doesn't notice me! Talk about a rotten way to feel! So when work seemed to just not stop stressing me out, and I got a migraine I decided it was the perfect time to just go home. Call me a baby but I was just not wanting to deal with anything else today. So here I sit in my lil place and while my lil guy watches cartoons, I am blogging. (ya ya I know it is a Tues.)
Its just that on days like today I want to simply disappear to my lil place and rejuvenate and BREATHE. So while I sit with a cup of tea, and relax in my sweats I am hoping to just take this time for me and the lil guy and prepare for when I go and pick up the rest of the crew.
So take a break for yourself once in awhile, and remember you are in charge of you and relax when it all becomes to much.

Getting On with me.....

Well it is finally happening, I have decided that there is a point in my life that I will and can take the time to take care of my needs. For years I have found that there is something in my life that has always kept me from taking care of me. Is it a martir complex? Is it the fear of just not taking care of the children's needs if I take care of me? Or that the Frog Prince made me feel guilty for doing absolutely anything for myself?
Who really knows? I mean really if I were to try and evaluate those parts of me that I don't get we would be here for a freaking long time!(No joke folks! Its like a Rubix cube in there!) So I took the time to just decide what it is that I want from and for my life. Now don't go thinking that I have the idea that I deserve or am entitled to everything and anything that I want but guess what? I just might be!
You see I have decided that the next time I give my heart to ANYONE I have to be loved, appreciated, taken care of and plain just enjoy the heck out of their company! I need to be able to come to them with my fears, needs, dreams, passions, and concerns and have them all met with an open heart.
I have in the past become so dedicated to the dreams and wants of the Frog Prince that as I stand today at 30 years old I am just a shadow of the girl that I once was. How is it that when we believe we are in love, we are so very quick to forget who and what we are? I mean think about it, you find out that the special someone in your life is a huge supporter of say PETA, and you are a huge meat eating carnivore! You like them, you want to make them like you, and often it is with these emotions that you are able to push who and what you are a little further towards what they want. Now I am of course using an extreme example but think about how many times you wore a shirt because your partner liked it , even though you really didn't? Or how when you were a die hard people person but chose to change that because your significant other can't stand crowds?
These are of course a variety of examples, and I by no means believe that you shouldn't give and take in a relationship. But when you become the giver, and you loose you, there needs to be a line that you just don't budge on. There should be a respect with the other person so that when you are truly passionate about something they understand, and support you. I am not saying that if you are into leaving the cap off the toothpaste and they are not that you should jump ship!(that would just be stupid) But I am saying if you are compassionate about a new direction that you want to take in your life that your partner and you are able to sit down and negotiate terms that are great for both of you.
So in my new life I have made changes. I have decided that I and no one else will dictate what and were I go. That I and only I will decide were my money that I make goes. And that if I am passionate about a career, or life path, it is up to me and my children on how we are going to achieve it. I am a mother first and foremost, they must and always will come before anyone else. This may sound a bit tough for most, but for the right person they will get it. They will get that my children are the only priority that I have and will have for quite awhile, and if they want to embrace me and the children they are more than welcome to come for the adventure of a lifetime, but if they can't they need to step away from the plate and move on.
I have been blessed with very good, dear, loving friends, and I have also been privileged to share me and my family with those that I have met. I want so much for who ever wants me, to take on the babies as his own, and so far I have seen great want, caring, and involvement with me and my children's needs. So now that I am getting to were I need to be for my lil family, I am now looking into the next adventure: My Passion For Cooking, Baking, and Entertaining
I have decided that I will blog on the trials and tribulations of the now single mom of four, who is going towards the one and only passion that she has ever known. To work in a job that I love, and to finally use all of loves of my life to make money!
Now don't worry I will still blog on starting over at 30, and even add the additional blog about the fun that I have with my lil ones! So no worries! Just join me on my newest adventures in this crazy life!

Happy Holidays!

Well blog readers I have made it! Yes me and my sweet lil one's have made it to another holiday, and guess what we are looking into a new year!
You see as many of you know at the beginning of this journey I was afraid, full of worry and doubt, and now look at were we are! Yes folks I have done what I set out to do! I have established my lil ones and I into a new home, and yes girls I upgraded! You see I decided that this go around it was going to be all what I wanted and what my little ones needed. Never again will I be in a situation were I have to live somewhere that I don't want too, nor will I live in a home that I have no control over what goes in the home.
My fairytale had to start with me finally realizing that I am in charge of my happy ending and when I discovered that I had this control things began to really start working out. My children really have reaped the benefits of this discovery, you see when they saw me for the loving, strong, intelligent, and caring mommy that they had only seen a shadow of in the past they were able to really start to feel secure in their new life.
And seeing them this Christmas has given me a feeling like I have never had before. You see this year we are starting new traditions that I have wanted to do for years! We are getting our family picture taken! Yes sad but true in the twelve years that I had been with the Frog Prince we never had a family photo! So this year my lil family and I got our pictures taken! To top it off, we are getting a REAL Christmas tree not a fake one, and for the first time ever we are able to choose what we want on it! We added the Christmas stroll, looking at lights, oh and an unlimited supply of Hot Cocoa! Now among all of the new traditions, we are keeping the old ones as well. The Santa key, the baking, making lists to Santa, and watching The Christmas Story. But this year we are all feeling a lot less stress, and so so much more blessed in our lives.
It truly makes one humble when they see all that God can bring into your life when you are willing to take the plunge and trust him.

I love this life!!!!!!

So my blog readers I must let you all in on a little bit of something. I get to do Christmas the way I want too! Now as you all are aware the Frog Prince was well Scrooge on this very sweet and much loved holiday. (Shocker! Not!) Yes folks he could take the sweet love and sounds of this wonderful holiday and destroy them.
Now as apart of my new life for me and the children, I have decided that we are going to do all that this holiday has to offer! From the fun activities offered here in town, to the silly little desires that we have for shopping out of town! Yes we are going to do what we want! We began this by buying the decorations that we wanted for our tree, and the lights that we wanted. Ya I know we are a regular gang of delinquents! From the bright colors that we picked, to the fact that we wanted pink lights on our tree we are rocking it!
You see we have so so very much to be thankful for and so much that we are looking forward too in our lives. We are excited for the beginning of new traditions, as well as the old traditions that we have for this holiday. Its like we are all celebrating Christmas for the first time! My children are excited at the idea that they will for the first time ever be able to enjoy this holiday season the way their friends have.
Now it is sad to me that due to the Frog Prince these darling lil ones have been pushed to the point of never experiencing even simple town events. But this year we are doing it! We kicked the season off with participating in the Christmas Stroll here in our lil town. We enjoyed cocoa,(coffee for my sanity) chili, cookies, candy canes, smores and more cookies! And guess what? They loved every minute of it! They enjoyed not having to worry about not being able to meet with friends on the stroll, they enjoyed that they were able to participate with the going on's of the stroll and felt great by getting to feel apart of a new area of this holiday.
I was happy just be able to go. I loved just being able to say yes when they asked, and I enjoyed not worrying about having to ask permission! Yes ladies, I was able to enjoy myself and not get any type of punishment!
So in this holiday season I feel like for the first time in years we are able to really enjoy our Christmas , and be apart of the regular family bonding events that we have missed out on.