There are many many times as a child that we are asked simply to believe in the unknown. We are asked to trust that there is a man that fly's by reindeer power through the night and is so efficient that he is able to deliver presents to everyone around the world. Not to mention we are lead to believe that there is a fairy out there who has such a fetish for our teeth that she is willing to pay us for them! From Santa to the tooth fairy we as a culture are truly just in the need for something to believe in. And it is with this need I believe we are going to always search out the next great fairytale even as adults.
The belief we want for the unknown and the unexplained is something even at the age of 30 I find that I want as well. I want to find the happy ending that for sooooo long I have tried to create. Maybe that has been my mistake this whole time! Here I being a triple A personality believed that my happy ending was no where in sight, there for I needed to make it happen. Though alas I was still upset by the results. You see I discovered that if your happy ending is not happening with the one that you were promised it by you must make it on your own. Or search out that individual that wants the same ending as you.
I mean come one the signs were all there with the relationship with the Frog Prince. He was utterly self absorbed and in all reality he couldn't even answer the simplest of questions about me. No lie it would be like a episode of Jeopardy and the Frog Prince would be playing against complete strangers and still lose! I know this may sound sad but it is just the reality of his complete disconnection with our relationship. For example Alex would ask "What is Amber's Favorite Season?", or "On this day Amber loves nothing more than a sentimental gesture to show that you remember this day of importance" or my favorite " What is the perfect Birthday according to her?"
You see all of these would well be completely either forgotten or never even considered by the Frog Prince as important. And yet to me they mean sooooo soooo very much. This is were even as a adult I believe in the happy ending. Because in my fairytale the man that I adore will know these and more, in my happy ending he will always consider me and my feelings as important, and what is best I won't even have to worry that this is just not instinct for him because it will be.
Now I am not completely delusional and I know that even the man that I adore may or may not have all of the qualities I want, but he will be willing to try to be there for me. And if you try I am going to find that quality of caring enough to try a huge plus!
